Slow Hope

I knew it was over as soon as my second child was born. However, by that time I was barely able to complete a thought. Let alone organize a plan for getting out of my marriage. So I just let myself drift, until finally nothing seemed to matter very much at all.

I still went to church, of course. Sundays I sang at the Baptist church where my husband served as Minister of Music and Thursdays, even though my husband told me he didn’t approve, I attended a Presbyterian Bible Study for women.

And still I prayed. I prayed for guidance and understanding. I prayed for wisdom and forgiveness. I prayed for help and endurance. But mostly I simply prayed for deliverance. I wanted out. Out of the bonds of my fundamental marriage. Out of my feelings of oppression. And out of the black hole that now surrounded me with every breath I took.

~Excerpt from Slow Hope
by Anita Swanson

The easy questions come first. Have you ever lied about anything and suffered for it? Have you ever self medicated through pills or alcohol? Have you ever contemplated or gotten divorced? Have you ever contemplated or had an affair? Have you ever been abused by anyone for any reason at anytime? Then the message of Slow Hope, The Long Journey Home is for you.

The hard questions come later. How can you save a life gone haywire? Why does it feel like I'm always in a crisis? Where was God anyway?

In Slow Hope, The Long Journey Home, a gifted story teller takes us along on her healing journey and proves to us once again that we can all change our destiny when we triumph over our adversity.